bring on your wrecking ball

Hard times come, hard times go

Yeah just to come again

Bring on your wrecking ball

hi friends, I'm so sorry I've been so disconnected lately.  This is going to be a quick little post before a bigger post.  The above video is Matt's theme song for me during this time and it has been something that continues to inspire and empower me as I get through. Thinking of him thinking of me in this way gives me strength.  (might want to fast forward to 1:40 b/c Jersey loves Bruce and it takes a while to get past all that applause ;o)
Just wanted to share...

I feel like so much time went by that I can't possibly bring you up to speed adequately. Had chemo 2 on March 13 and thought I could spontaneously crash Matt's business trip to NYC without complications March 23-26....boy was I wrong.  Got very ill and ended up in hospital upon my return.  Blood showed an interminable infection of some sort and took a week to recover.   While THAT was beyond horrible, Round 3 chemo April 3 and the weeks to follow showed pretty smooth sailing.  Aside from minor issues and being tired, my team had decided that bringing me in the week after chemo for some 2 hour cocktail i.v.'s would be beneficial (Mon Weds and Fri following chemo) and they were right.  I am now, as most know off of my final round of chemo and have had one post treatment (yesterday) and will do Weds/Fri this week.  So far so good.

So lessons learned in some of this time?  
Cautionary tail about the dangers of traveling with a compromised immune system. Wear a face mask.
Time flies except when it doesnt. I feel like the bad days go at a snail's pace and then I look back and say I'm done w/ round 4 already? woah. just woah. 
Everywhere you go there you are. I get super bad roid rage on chemo and I can't quite seem to get away from myself. Big bummer to be such a big bitch. Not fun. 
Dance like no one is watching. I went to a zumba party in memory of Tara Boland & the TaTa Sisterhood Foundation on April 10th. Tara was super inspirational for the wonderful way she lived her life.  She has left such a legacy through the TaTa Sisterhood and her beautiful family....I'm not a dancer but I feel a special connection to her so I went.  I zumba'd even though I have no rhythm and no coordination, and then an amazing thing happened....my face hurt from smiling so much. Such a beautiful and blessed event.  Here's a little clip and a pic from that night:

More to come....